I'm Renee: big brother

Monthly update: 24 months

13:12

The last in my monthly update series of E now that he's a big boy at 2!

Stats & clothes:

Size 2 and finally it's cold enough to break out his winter wardrobe although not quite the puffers and vests yet. It is however already time for another pair of shoes! The size 2 pants are still big around his skinny waist but the size 1s are too tight at the ankle go figure.

Favorite Foods:
Food is not as popular here lately as of once was with many meals being a battle of stamina before he tries to swandive from his chair. We have noticed though his increased tolerance for spices and a little bit of heat in dishes so I am loving making all our meals almost in the TMX and knowing everything is made fresh and from scratch. Yoghurt pouches, cheese, bikkies and berries remain popular as always and the little rascal will happily help himself from the fridge if we are silly enough to leave the latch off - yes, we have to lock our pantry and fridge to avoid full blown tantrums.

Favorite Words:

I am constantly in stitches this month with things like a forlorn 'why' complete with hand actions when told to eat dinner, the answer 'yes I do (pause) mummy/daddy' or 'no I don't' if asked a question and calling daddy 'mate' (this one gives me hysterics especially). There is not much he isn't saying nowadays it seems and we get a lot of his independent little 'Einy do mummy' or 'Einy's turn now'.

Favorite Activities:

Jumping on the 'peen' aka toddler speak for trampoline ... Especially with daddy.

He also loves swimming lessons and is very proficient much to my delight, rhyme time at the local library where he runs crazy with his partners in crime and pottering about his room and playroom creating chaos and mess which he surveys proudly and says 'Einy's mess mummy'.

Least Favorite Activities:

Mealtime - it's a battle of wills and almost always seems to involve tears lately regardless of what is served. We've backed right off and just serve a grazing plate, let it sit and take it away after 20 minutes or so as we don't want meals or food to become an issue for him and we need to trust he knows what he needs.

His Favorite Things:

His baby brother Charlie. I couldn't have ever dreamed how easy our early days have been adding a newborn but E has totally delighted me with how much he loves his little brother and how very gentle and caring he is. He loves to 'hold' bubby in the mornings for a cuddle, sit with us sippy cup of milk in hand while I feed and is quick to tell me if C is 'wakeup' 'burping' or 'sssshhhh sleeping'.

Toy Story is still number one here so anything TS related is a winner including figurines, movies, dolls, drink bottles, plates/bowls, bath wash ... You get the idea. He is obsessed! With that in mind, we planned his birthday party themed around the movies.

Slippers have also become popular this month much to my relief. With the weather steadily getting cooler, I bought him some Hoot slippers to match his Giggle pjs but he flat out refused to wear them but something has switched in the past week and now he insists on wearing them every morning upon waking and as soon as pjs go on at night.

My Favorite Things:
My thermomix as it allows me to make E snacks and meals in record time from scratch so I know exactly what is in it and that there are no nasties. I'm not sure what I ever did without it and I'm looking forward to having it this time around once C starts solids.

Morning tea milkshake dates with my boy and sometimes my niece too. There is a great cafe near us that does a toddler deal complete with milkshake, mini muffin, Vegemite sandwich and activity pack for $5.95 so needless to say, we are regular visitors and the waiters know us by name.
I am loving the Mr Potato Head giant sets he has as while its a toy, its been fantastic in teaching E about body parts, where they go and the fine motor skills involved in slotting them into place.

Other Milestones:

Es first haircut happened this past month at grandad's barber and yes, I shed a tear at my baby having big boy hair and no more wispy curls. The barber was fabulous and snipped away quickly without fuss before E knew what was going on.
Counting! Not just reciting numbers but actually counting up to 8. It blows my mind he is already mastering this.

He is also stringing words together every time he speaks now and my favourite of course is 'I love you mummy'.

Just this morning, he also told me 'bless mummy' after I sneezed - isn't that the sweetest!

The days are long but the years really are short and I can't believe I now have a 2 year old and a newborn. E has been and continues to be a delight to us every single day and while he is demanding and our introduction to parenting with him hasn't been without its hurdles, our big boy has taught us so much about love, being a family and how to be better people. I am grateful every single day that he was trusted to us to nurture and love and we are blessed to be Ethan's parents.

2 under 2

Reality sets in

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I've been quiet here as we've been busy finding our way ... Ok no, I've just been busy getting out and about to the park, the shops and all sorts of fun places while S has been off work.

But reality set in today as S went back to work and I was on my own with two boys and a heavy schedule for the day yesterday. Ok, 'on my own' is a little exaggerated as our first outing was Rhyme Time with my mum and 2 nieces ... But I still had to get the 3 of us out the door and there. And let me tell you, the night before was like something out of a horror story with 3 hysterical wakes from the toddler before 11pm and a baby who decide to have a 2h marathon feed at 10pm. We all ended up in the master bed with sleep coming around midnight and the little one getting him and I back up at 3am. Thankfully it was only a quick feed and we were back in bed at 3:30 and everyone slept till 6:30.

So with much less sleep than I hoped and expecting the worst, we started our day early so I could at least get a shower before S went to work. I then made short work of dressing both boys and popping them in the car - laying out clothes the night before and having the baby bag always packed definitely help. Rhyme time was worth the effort to get out with E loving the chance to sing and dance with his cousins and friends and me slowly building confidence in a 'safe' environment'. I had a great time catching up with my nieces and all our friends who come along and E wore himself out dancing and running around much to my delight. After rhyme time, we headed home to meet a girlfriend of mine and her son at our place for morning tea and a play. Our boys had fun destroying the playroom while we got to catch up and then it was time to put E down for a nap. C cooperated and dozed in the swing so I could get E down and then I had a relaxing hour to eat lunch, bring some washing in, hang some washing out and clean the playroom - a mother's work is never done.

E napped for an hour and twenty, which is sadly considered a decent nap in our house, went on to refuse his lunch (like every other meal offered lately) and I dropped him for a play with his cousins at my mums and set out to do our grocery shop with C in the sling.

C was pretty cooperative and as usual, sleepy, at the supermarket but perked up midway and wanted to feed. So rather than abandon my trolley (which I did several times back in the early days with E), I just positioned the sling and fed C as I continued with my shop. Win win for us both. I capped off what was a pretty great day with State of Origin (and a blues win!) at my parents' house with family and friends.

As I told S, I'm well aware there will be tricky days ahead but for the most part I'm pretty confident my boys and I are going to have a lot of fun while I am home with them.

And in other exciting happenings, I have a lunch date booked with my sister for today, as mums and bubs movie on Friday while E is at kindy followed by a haircut!

In the biggest news of the year (for me anyway other than Charlie's birth), I saw last week The Eagles were returning to Australia! I adore The Eagles as does my dad and we went to their last concerts (and loved every second) so needless to say, we were more than a little excited for this tour and especially when my mum discovered an Anex presale. Happily our tix are secured for next March!

I've also jumped on the bandwagon with wrap tops. I keep seeing them everywhere and really like the draping and style. Not sure how practical it is for my SAHM wardrobe but I'll give it a try and figure the print will work well with jeans at least. I am especially loving the black and white striped version Country Road has out just now but I think I'd get more wear from that in my corporate wardrobe which has been retired till next year at least.

2 under 2

Charlie's birth story

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Ethan's birth came about unexpectedly with a surprise induction after an OB checkup that morning due to the onset of pre eclampsia. Despite its surprise, S and I were both ready and confident for a natural birth experience thanks to our Calmbirth classes. If anything, we were excited. Fast forward 24 hours later and we had the drug free natural experience we were after but left a little shell shocked after a few complications occurred in the later stages.

It was those complications that led me to having a scheduled c section with Charlie. I was a much higher risk this time after a serious tear and haemorrhage with a strong likelihood of ending up in emergency surgery so rather than risk the unknown and with E to consider, we took the professionals' advice.

It was an odd feeling this time around, knowing the exact date our baby was going to be delivered. Certainly helpful with a toddler to organise and family to notify but a little surreal too. I of course barely slept a wink the night before, had my bags by the door and was up at 5am harassing S to get organised so we could head to the hospital. I was eager to meet our new addition!

We checked into the hospital... It was very civilised and quite hotel like, ran through the details of the surgery with the midwives and changed into our gowns and robes. Then the wait began. I was scheduled for 8:30am but due to 2 emergencies, I was shuffled and wasn't taken to theatre till 12:30pm.

We were led to a small room off theatre where the anesthetist spoke to us about what they would do and what we could expect. Next thing I know, I was taken into a well lit room filled with people (a little like Grand Central Station) and while all were lovely and greeted me, I felt a little shaky and how I imagined Alice felt falling down the rabbit hole. I chose to concentrate firmly on the crib and baby station knowing that soon my baby would be here being measured and weighed.

The anesthetic nurse spoke to me and had me position myself on a strange contraption that allowed me to hunch forward while the anaesthetist busied himself finding a spot in my back to insert the local and spinal block. It took a little longer than expected as they had a hard time getting it between my vertebrae but it wasn't painful, certainly nothing like I expected and then the heavy warmth kicked in.

Next thing I know, S is by my side and a screen has been erected in front of me. My legs were numb and heavy and they used some ice cubes to test where the numbness kicked in on my skin. The anaesthetist warned me I was likely to feel a little sick and sure enough, my blood pressure plummeted, I went ghost white and they had a bucket by my head but thankfully I didn't blow my cookies and the drug they had to counteract the nausea kicked in quick.

The OB and anethetists were lovely at keeping conversation flowing and us comfortable, warning me when I was likely to feel sick and the sensations I was likely to experience. One of them said it would feel like someone was doing the washing up in my stomach ... Lots of pulling and tugging but no pain. He was spot on, that's exactly how it felt. Next thing they warned me I would feel some breathlessness but then my baby would be here and it instantly felt like I had been winded then I looked up, and there was my baby.

Everyone in the theatre knew we didn't know the sex so remained quiet and allowed as to call it. With tears in his eyes he looked at me and said 'it's a boy' 'we have another son' and gave me a big kiss. I was shaking and just wanted to see him. They had to take him to be wiped, suctioned etc and then they placed him on my chest and he just looked up at me with these big wide eyes exactly like his brother and I was completely in love. I also could not get over that he looked exactly like Ethan ... Truly his twin but exactly 1 pound heavier.

While they stitched me up (at least that's what they told me they were doing), S and I marvelled over our perfect little boy and cuddled him close. I tried to help him latch for his first feed but he was so wide eyed and crazily rooting around, he just wouldn't latch so we cuddled instead. By the time the surgeon was done and I was being wheeled to recovery, I started to get sensation and strength/control back in my legs. After a couple of minutes in recovery, I could even clumsily jerk my legs upwards much to the midwives' shock. My vital signs were all good and we managed to get Charlie latched for his first feed so I was wheeled up to our room.

I had heard the maternity rooms at the new Gold Coast University Hospital were lovely but nothing prepared me for how well equipped and appointed they were. Spacious with private bath, sofa and even built in baby bath and change station. Add all the mod cons including a TV, phone and bar fridge and the room was more luxurious than the local private hospital's maternity.

My mother joined us in my room and S left to go pick up our biggest boy to come meet his baby brother. We had family visit for the afternoon and it got a bit crazy and crowded for awhile with overlapping guests but the best part was when E arrived and we got to introduce him to Charlie. We had gifts from baby all set for E but turns out we didn't need them, they were just a nice surprise for E. He was instantly smitten and cooed softly and quietly to Charlie, stroking his hand gently and giving him soft kisses. There is nothing quite like seeing your baby become a big brother and it made me love E even more for the beautiful nature he has.

Things started to get a little tough as the early evening started with the spinal wearing off completely and my seeming immunity to the pain medication I was given. After my pain score reached a 12 out of 10 and I was in tears with gritted teeth, the anaesthetist came to see me and offered me two plans of action. One involved a pump which I declined and the other was a stronger course of meds I had already been given. Eventually the meds kicked in at the higher dose and I was able to rest comfortably. Charlie meanwhile slept unless woken for feeds so after a good night's sleep, I pounced on the morning MW to remove my catheter ASAP so I could get moving and showered. They told me to take it easy and wait for my next round of meds but I knew the best thing I could do was get up and active.

After a shower, I felt amazing although a little woozy on my feet and I was very nauseous. The nausea continued the entire day and I wasn't able to keep down even a sip of water so back the doctors came and I was prescribed anti-nausea drugs and fluids to get it under control. The afternoon MW ended up suggesting the cause was one of the meds they had me on for pain and sure enough, as soon as they stopped that, the nausea ceased. From then on in, my hospital stay was holiday-like with the MWs absolutely lovely (possibly because I didn't actually need them for anything), Charlie sleeping unless I woke him for a feed and plenty of time for me to rest, read and relax.

I was almost sad to leave after being so well cared for but 4 days away from my boys was more than long enough and I wanted to get home to E.

All in all, my c-section was a very positive experience that was comfortable, well thought through and managed professionally. S particularly enjoyed the experience much more this time around (probably because he wasn't cut open and didn't have to see anything) and had none of the anxiety that came during E's birth and lingered over the following weeks. I couldn't say if I preferred one over the other as they are very different experiences and my recovery has been no better or worse given the stitches etc from round one but the planner/organiser/researcher definitely found it comfortable to know the when, where, what this time.

baby two

Second time around post partum must haves

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These are a few of the things that have made my life a little easier the second time around so far and with having two under two on the go. Probably not necessities in a lot of people's books, they have certainly been useful in my recovery, getting out and about and in looking after the boys...

Uniden twin digital video monitor - two cameras, but only one screen that can split or scroll and I especially love how portable the cameras are (they can be charged up and clipped anywhere or permanently plugged in and fixed).

Swisse prenatal vitamins - between breast feeding a newborn, chasing a toddler and just generally getting around, I definitely notice the difference in my day if I don't take my morning vitamin. I have found Swisse to be the easiest to digest.

A good water bottle - I use my Tupperware Quencher and try to drink at least 3-4 bottles during the day to stay hydrated. This bottle is perfect for on the go and when I remember, I fill the base with snacks like nuts (or shapes or chocolate) so I have something to munch on when I'm chained to the couch with a sleeping/feeding babe.

The Cinch tummy support band. I swore by this last time and can sing it's praises even more the second time around for a c-section. No matter your birth, this provides lower back and tummy support (essential given your core muscles barely exist post partum), it helps guide all your muscles etc back into place and flattens the tummy ultra fast - I'm already back in pre preg clothes and I've only been using this for 2 weeks.

Benefibre or other good supplement is necessary and while I was smart and took it from 38 weeks pregnant last time, it slipped my mind this time. A shame as it was more necessary this time because of the surgery and strong pain killers I was prescribed following.

High waisted knickers - every mother I know who has had a c section swore by these and while not the most attractive, they really are best for comfort and practicality given the wound/stitches placement. Target and Kmart both do them cheaply (less than $10 for 5 pairs) and at that price, you can toss them after wear. Kmart are my faves over the Target ones.

Bugaboo Donkey, Maxi Cosi capsule and capsule adapters have all been a heaven sent luxury. C is a very relaxed sleepy bub so being able to let him snooze on the go without disruption is wonderful for all of us. Being able to transfer the capsule to pram chassis from car is also a great safety feature when wrestling E in a carpark. It means I can quickly and safely clip C in then restrain E without fuss instead of worrying about him stepping away from me while tending to C and vice versa.

I'm also getting use out of plenty of the paraphernalia we stockpiled with E including the Halo sleep sack swaddles (make wrapping and night time a breeze), the freestanding swing (takes up a lot of room but handy to pop C down when I'm trying to get E down for a nap or prep dinner), the Tasman Eco bassinet (hooray it's actually getting used this time!) and my Godsend, the Fisher Price rock n play (saved my sanity with E and is great to pop C in after a feed during the day or for daytime naps in the lounge room).

There's plenty of other bits and bobs I'm loving so no doubt you can expect a future post in the same vein. I'm also trying to get around to writing out Charlie's birth story and how different it was from Ethan's in terms of induced drug free and a c-section but I keep getting distracted by toddler playtime, newborn cuddles and milkshake dates with my boys.

In other news, E continues to be an absolutely delightful, adoring and gentle big brother - we haven't had to tell him 'no' or similar for his playing with Charlie and I just adore watching him stroke 'bubby's' hair or hold his hand while he sings or talks to him. Here are some pics we had done of the boys by a very talented friend earlier in the week (Michele of Love Photography for Gold Coasters).

35 weeks

Pregnancy update: 36 weeks

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How far along? 36 weeks ... And I'm officially on mat leave! Hooray for some time out before our world gets turned upside down in the most amazing way.

Maternity clothes? No but I'm so ready to choose from a wider range of my wardrobe and for some cooler weather so I can break out some new styles.

Stretchmarks? Still no sign touch wood.

Symptoms: lots of downward pressure and twinges, constant and strong tightenings/Braxton Hicks ... Baby is definitely getting ready to arrive. The heartburn is also unrelenting and really keeping my appetite to a minimum.

Sleep: not enough lately as I'm uncomfortable (shooting pains and aches in my shoulder blades) and having crazy vivid dreams combined with some sleep walking I suspect - I woke yesterday to a box of Rennies and contents spread across the kitchen bench and actually accused S of putting them there.

Miss Anything? Moisturizing my legs and feet comfortably, sleeping on my tummy and a good bottle Sav Blanc - not necessarily in that order.

Movement: baby loves playing up for big brother and big brother loves touching, patting and talking to my bump so we have lots of kicks and thumps throughout the day. Hopefully this is the start of a beautiful sibling relationship.

Best moment this week: the way E is constantly talking about 'bubby' now and wanting to interact with my bump just keeps getting better. We have been getting him to practice saying our short list of baby names and his pronunciations are beyond adorable ... And are helping to sway our choices too. We spent some time Saturday afternoon, reassembling the capsule after washing and he climbed in it to show 'bubby' the seat - this was complete with lifting my top so 'bubby' could see and explaining it used to be his seat but he has a big boy one now. He really is going to make the best big brother

Worst moment this week: shopping again this week was a nightmare ... E was not a happy camper and wanted to be carried the whole time which of course I couldn't do. Thankfully my little brother's gf was with us and was the most amazing helper!

Food cravings: cola drinks and chilled nashi pears together or on their own. I'm also loving our variation broccoli salad with apple cider vinegar and fresh warm scones whipped up in the tmx with lots of butter.

Happy or Moody most of the time: easier to tears and frustration this week as the future is looking a little overwhelming but I'm definitely happy!

Looking forward to: the simple things ... A few days with my boys as S is off till Wednesday so we have some fun plans lined up and then looking forward to having some fun with E starting at rhyme time on Wednesday morning.

35 weeks

Pregnancy update: 35 weeks

09:06

How far along? 35 weeks ... Where the heck has time even gone? I'd hate to think how fast any subsequent pregnancy would pass if we were planning any more.

Maternity clothes? I'm proof you don't have to buy mat wear to survive pregnancy comfortably ... But I only seem to grow in the belly and I just can't get into ASOS like the rest of Australia after some poor selections/disappointing quality years ago. Living in my Coles Mix ruched dresses on the weekends (under $20 each, cost per wear must be down to a few cents) and Country Road shirred waist printed pants with a seamless tank for work.

Stretchmarks? Still keeping them at bay... Can't get cocky though, there are weeks to go.

Symptoms: I'm starting to experience the symptoms of pre-eclampsia that I had last time around including blinding headaches, left side numbness and tingling to my face, arm and hand and higher bp readings but I'm in good hands being well monitored for this.

In other fun symptoms I swear I had some sporadic contractions on Sunday... Irregular but super strong and hard to get through. They also started while I was out at the shops with E and I really struggled with the pram and getting back to the car so I'm going to have to think twice about heading out anywhere on my own with him over the coming weeks.

Sleep: that 3am bathroom call is like clockwork but otherwise I'm sleeping very well if the toddler permits it.

Miss Anything? Just tummy sleeping ... The rest of the contraband isn't that far off being back on the menu whereas I suspect it will be a while before I can tummy sleep again. I have to say, I'm missing being able to easily reach my toes and moisturise my legs each day too... The things we take for granted.

Movement: it's definitely painful or jolting now as bub is running out of room. I still appreciate it for the miracle and reminder it is but I'm often caught gasping or grimacing as I'm caught unawares.

Best moment this week: something seems to have really clicked for E with the baby this past week because he has started running up to me begging for 'baby baby baby' and trying to lift my top. He then pats my belly, chatters in baby babble and gives it kisses or waves saying 'hiiiii'. It seriously almost has me in tears, it's just so precious and beautiful. E is such a caring and compassionate little guy and I can see that is going to translate to him being a wonderful big brother in time.

Worst moment this week: definitely shopping yesterday with E when the irregular contractions hit ... There was some minor panic on my part that my waters were going to break in public while S was at work, my parents away and my sis not answering her phone. Not to mention I'm hoping for a week or two of maternity leave before we meet B2.

Food cravings: cold nashi pears are a definite and growing craving ... So crunchy and juicy at the moment. I can take or leave everything else otherwise it seems.

Happy or Moody most of the time: at 4am with a toddler who wants to get up and play, I am definitely moody. At most other times, I'm happy... Very happy and so excited. I am so in love with my boys and can't wait to meet B2.

Looking forward to: my OB checkup later in the week to finalise our birth plan and hear/see baby moving and growing.

34 weeks

Pregnancy update: 34 weeks

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How far along? 34 weeks ... OMG I'm having a baby in a month give or take!

Maternity clothes? Still avoiding and the way this heat has been, my JW mat jeans are not going to be needed at all - thankfully!

Stretchmarks? Not so far touch wood.

Symptoms: the heartburn! Omg it's killing me at the moment like you can't even imagine. Regular headaches seem to be starting also but the rest is just part and parcel of late pregnancy now.

Sleep: averaging a 3am wake up every night plus struggling to get comfortable. No insomnia though so I'm really not doing too badly.

Miss Anything? Yes! Sleeping on my tummy! Badly! It's probably the only thing I really hate about being pregnant as I've always been a solid tummy sleeper and don't budge from eyes closing to eyes opening.

Movement: Its constant although I don't always notice it so much during the day especially of E is keeping me on my toes and then cue minor panic until I take a quiet moment to concentrate and feel them. Otherwise bub is mostly confined now and so instead of nice flutters, they are hard jabs ... to my ribs, hips etc. Fun times ;)

Best moment this week: organising a newborn photographer to take photographs of B2 and also of E and B2 - I'm ridiculously excited imagining these pics of my two children together.

Worst moment this week: I wouldn't say it was a nightmare but I threw myself in the deep end offering to have my two nieces and E for a couple of hours one afternoon. I ended up with 3 sooky toddlers who all wanted to sit in my lap, a little guy who didn't want to share his mummy at all. It was exhausting and stressful!

Food cravings: mint choc biscuits, Cadbury Turkish Delight mini easter eggs and nashi pears straight from the fridge ... E is a fan too so thankfully they are in season now and not the price of a small car.

Happy or Moody most of the time: oh there have been tears ... just for how much is about to change, little things are getting to me and my patience is stretched thanks to the constant discomfort and feelings of tiredness. Otherwise, I'm happy, really really happy!

Looking forward to: hosting my family for dinner this week to celebrate my parents' birthdays ... we got them some great gifts and I love a good present reveal.

33 weeks

Pregnancy Update: 33 weeks

10:05

How far along? 33 weeks ... only 2.5 weeks till maternity leave starts and 5-6 weeks before we meet B2! S actually had a mini freak out earlier in the week exclaiming we hadn't done anything to get ready for the baby and its all snuck up on him. Cue laughter from me and the reassurance that all we have to do is put the capsule in the car, everything essential has been done/organised otherwise.

Maternity clothes? No maternity wear this week again - it was insanely humid so I lived in jersey maxi dresses on the weekend and my Country Road elastic waisted pants for work. Pictured: Country Road jersey dress from 4 or 5 seasons ago.

Stretchmarks? None to speak of but we are in the danger zone now so I'm lathering often.

Symptoms: baby is very low and pushing right down so walking is getting a little uncomfortable but otherwise just the usual tiredness, constant peeing and feeling full after just a few bites of food because my stomach has been squished to pea size.

Sleep: its deep when I get there but I'm having clockwork 4:30am wakeups for the bathroom and then E joins us around 5/5:30am and tosses and turns and cuddles till 6am when we give up and S usually gets up with him.

Miss Anything? No not by now because there is only a few weeks till I can have most of it again anyway.

Movement: lots of wriggling and hiccups and big response to Ethan's singing or playing ... B2 went crazy yesterday when E started singing twinkle twinkle loudly! Loves big brother already.

Best moment this week: my Ob appointment to finalise B2's delivery and the reassurance and peace of mind it has given me moving forward - I will do a separate post discussing this. I also had a perfect Sunday with E - we met up with a gf and her son at the local rockpools for a play and milkshake day. You couldn't wipe the grin off my boy's face and I had fun catching up with my gf.

Worst moment this week: Hearing at my Ob checkup that my BP is right up and needs close monitoring from now as if pre-eclampsia is going to strike again, this is the time. I am also not enjoying the lower back pain that never seems to leave now and the aching shoulder blades I seem to get overnight. Saturday was also a lowlight with an uncooperative tantrum throwing toddler who seems to have found his ability to screech/scream indiscriminately to convey displeasure ... but we survived.

Food cravings: still cold fruit, cola drinks, mint slice briscuits and cheddar crackers.

Happy or Moody most of the time: like last week, there have been lots of tears this week too. Some have been unhappy, stressed and or overwhelmed tears but they don't last long and are a good release because once they stop, I feel much better. Its just a crazy time with lots to take on board so I expect the tears are pretty normal.

Looking forward to: starting maternity leave in a couple of weeks and 'nesting' around the house - I have a few projects/rooms/cupboards I want to attack before baby arrives.

32 weeks

Pregnancy update: 32 weeks

09:21

How far along? 32 weeks ... Boy, girl? Arghhhh its killing me! I'm feeling so disorganised as I have 2 enormous boxes of newborn clothes - one pink, one blue - and I don't know which to unpack so they are just sitting in the nursery awaiting D-Day.

Maternity clothes? Nope still just the usual pieces on high rotation. Pic below features seamless black singlet/vest from Kmart ($10 for 2) and jersey fabric skirt from Country Road.

Stretchmarks? Still none... Keeping fingers crossed and moisturising constantly.

Symptoms: the usual stuff you would expect this late in the game with lots of Braxton Hicks. I can't complain too much though, I don't have anything like the swelling that started around this time with E and am feeling pretty great all things considered.

Sleep: still not enough ... I'm needing at least 8 hours but think 10 would be even better - someone needs to tell E that morning is not 5:30am because he's not listening to us. Lately I'm so tired my teeny tiny bladder isn't even waking me for overnight bathroom trips.

Miss Anything? By this point I'm pretty used to not having the contraband items like feta, wine, soft serve ... you know, all the fun stuff.

Movement: constant and loving it. I'm trying to make sure I really take note and enjoy it given this will likely be my final pregnancy.

Best moment this week: our checkup scan and the positive results were definitely the best moment but I'd have to say that pulling off a huge work event was pretty rewarding too and allows me to finish up before I start maternity leave on an enormous professional high.

Worst moment this week: the sore tired feet and lower back pain from a long day at the aforementioned work event.

Food cravings: fresh food of all kinds like TMX broccoli salad, melon, salad sandwiches and lemon cordial.

Belly Button in or out? Hating it as an outie ... And it's not a cute one!

Happy or Moody most of the time: lots of tears this week but not necessarily unhappy or moody, I've just have had a lot on so more a result of being overwhelmed.

Looking forward to: my OB appointment this week to finalise delivery options.

31 weeks

Pregnancy update: 31 weeks

09:03

How far along? 31 weeks ... I'm now hanging out to know if we are having a boy or a girl! I still can't believe I've managed to last this long without giving in.

Maternity clothes? normal regular wardrobe is still making do and I'm reluctant to buy any maternity wear this far along as most of it isn't then nursing friendly so would be a waste of money for 7-8 weeks of wear.

Stretchmarks? none - my Mothercare cream is proving just as reliable as last time.

Symptoms: I've been having cramps, some stronger than others along with lower backpain, non-abating heartburn and pelvic pain ... yep, we're definitely on the downhill run.

Sleep: blissful and coma-like, just not enough. I'm also having those crazy vivid pregnancy dreams again - last night it was about my 32 week scan where the radiographer said 'so, you know you're having twins right?' It was so real I felt like I had to call my parents to let them know.

Miss Anything? not really... although I'm making a list of things I want in hospital including a McDonald's chocolate sundae, a Kirin cider and a glass of good champagne - not necessarily all at once.

Movement: its pretty constant and B2 seems to be quite an active bub - particularly at around 8-10pm and 5-7am with lots of kicks, rolling and hiccups. I have to say I will really miss feeling baby move once born.

Best moment this week: without a doubt, hanging out with E was the best moment of my week. He is growing so fast and in to the most delightful little guy. We had so much fun going out for milkshake dates, swimming, playing at home and visiting friends and I'm so excited about having the next 12 months at home with him. We also had dinner this week with close friends and their 2 gorgeous children and it was so much fun watching E play with the older children and the way they doted on him. It made me realise that once the initial upheaval of B2's arrival settles down, E is going to love being a big brother.

Worst moment this week: the aforementioned symptoms ramping up is definitely the worst.

Food cravings: fruit ... cold fruit like melons and Fuji apples especially.

Belly Button in or out? out and creeping me ... I think I'm going to have to start taping it.

Happy or Moody most of the time: happy for so many reasons but especially that I only have 4.5 weeks left of work.

Looking forward to: a scan and seeing baby later this week on screen.

30 weeks

Pregnancy update: 30 weeks

11:14

How far along? 30 weeks ... we spent the weekend trying to get our heads around the fact we will have a newborn in around 8 weeks! Time really has flown for the most part this pregnancy and I guess a lot of that is because I have E as my main focus rather than the pegnancy itself ... chasing a toddler doesn't leave much time for reading pregnancy books and thinking about the changes to come.

Maternity clothes? Still making do with my regular wardrobe for the most part and praying for cooler weather as my Autumn/Winter wardrobe is looking much comfier right now - leggings anyone?

Stretchmarks? none so far.

Symptoms: all the fun stuff like tiredness, heartburn from just a glass of water, general discomfort and an urge to pee constantly from baby pushing down. All the coughing from my chest infection is also playing havoc with my pelvic floors so I'm working hard on those exercises you can be sure.

Sleep: not enough! E seems to have become ultra clingy to me and is waking around 4am wanting constant reassurance of my presence... this of course coincides with my waking up with an urge to pee anyway.

Miss Anything? I would love some cough medicine and a Kirin cider or three.

Movement: B2 seems to get very active in the afternoon and late evening with lots of kicking and rolling I can see just from looking down as space becomes premium in there.

Best moment this week: securing tickets to The Wiggles latest local show in May - granted I may have a one week old at the time but E is going to go crazy! Taking delivery of our new Thermomix was pretty exciting too and putting it into action even more so. Being able to whip up meals for us and E that take only minutes and have nothing but fresh ingredients definitely makes me happy ... and gives me hope for us and our future nutrition with a newborn in the house. I also had fun pulling out newborn clothes storage boxes of E's and my niece L. My mum had kindly washed and divided the boxes to unisex, boys and girls before storing them so I have put away all the white and unisex in B2's wardrobe with the pink and blue boxes on standby. Considering I counted around 15 Bonds wondersuits in white alone, I'm pretty sure I can't justify much shopping this tiem around.

Worst moment this week: still having a cold, the broken sleep and having the return of an upset clingy toddler who only wants mummy therefore daddy is feeling a little sensitive.

Food cravings: microwave popcorn ... I'd happily eat it for lunch or dinner most days.

Belly Button in or out? its out and I'm hoping it goes back in! Even E laughs at it.

Happy or Moody most of the time: feeling happy and excited to meet our baby but starting to feel a little anxious again about the impact the coming changes will have on E.

Looking forward to: nothing specific in the immediate week so much apart from time spent with my boys.

28 weeks

Pregnancy update: 29 weeks

18:12

28 weeks

Pregnancy update: 28 weeks

10:32

How far along? 28 weeks ... the 3rd trimester is almost here!.

Maternity clothes? Still just wearing parts of my regular wardrobe on high rotation. I'm not anti-maternity wear by any stretch but I just haven't had the occasion to require specific maternity wear with my parts of existing wardrobe covering the need quite adequately if boringly. I'd rather save the money to splurge on new clothes once baby is born.

Stretchmarks? none still but running out of my Mothercare cream so hoping my friend in Singapore can come through for me and send some over.

Symptoms: Still being driven mad by that twitchy eyelid and just all round exhaustion lately too. I've also had a few mornings of nausea but none today thankfully.

Sleep: next to non existent the last few nights with this awful cold/flu taking hold - the vaporiser is working overtime in our house.

Miss Anything? Oh how I'd love to pop a cold and flu tablet or ten and see the back of this sore throat, cough and stuffy head!

Movement: constant and getting stronger with B2 still a fan of hanging from my ribs. I'm sure B2 also was laying transverse for a day this week and the pain almost killed me ... E did the same around this period and it was excruciating.

Best moment this week: spending the weekend with my happy little guy and enjoying TWO tantrum free days ... the disposition in Toddler Town is on the up.

Worst moment this week: waking up this morning to worse symptoms than I've had all week and a painfully sore throat.

Food cravings: the usual culprits like iced coffee milk extra cold, Whitmans coconut chocolate, chocolate yogos and mint choc biscuits are all still in favour here along with microwave popcorn and Cheddar shapes.

Anything making you queasy or sick: no, I seem to be passed any food aversions.

Belly Button in or out? I'm considering taping it down - does it work? I'm vain and hating the visibility through my clothes.

Happy or Moody most of the time: excited and full of anticipation for the exciting changes ahead.

Looking forward to: my Ob appointment later this week - should be lots of updates from this one meeting - and taking delivery of a very exciting new piece of kitchen equipment that is guaranteed to save me time and money plus the ability to prepare food for my little family that is additive free and as fresh as possible.

27 weeks

Pregnancy update: 27 weeks

10:49

26 weeks

Pregnancy update: 26 weeks

09:35

How far along? 26 weeks ... I'll be on mat leave before I know it at this rate.

Maternity clothes? Nada ... Still sticking to my stretchy waisted Country Road pieces.

Stretchmarks? No.

Symptoms: annoyingly I seem to have developed a twitchy right eyelid ... apparently common in pregnancy due to stress and fatigue. The Braxton Hicks too are ever present as is the shortness of breath from even the slightest exertion but feeling good.

Sleep: waking earlier than I need to and lots of tossing and turning - prepping me for life with a newborn already.

Miss Anything? I miss not having to worry - about what I'm eating, doing, if I'm eating enough or the right things, resting enough, feeling ok etc.

Movement: baby is a busy bee in the evening and whenever E is causing a commotion - b2 reacts to big brother's voice like crazy.

Best moment this week: the best was having my maternity leave fully and officially approved - 12 months at least off with my babies, how lucky am I! Picking up the new double pram was a bit of a highlight too but assembling it, not so much. Catching up with a gorgeous girlfriend for breakfast was also lovely and so relaxed without our munchkins to chase.

Worst moment this week: the GD test wasn't horrible but it's never fun drinking liquid sugar then having bloods drawn.

Food cravings: same as last week, I'm devouring mango, mint slice biscuits, Nodco coffee milks iced and had a crazy craving for wagon wheels even though I don't like marshmallow and haven't had one in years!

Anything making you queasy or sick: having some mid morning nausea and again in the afternoons but otherwise still just meat is making me queasy.

Belly Button in or out? I'm still adjusting to the fact that it's out 😩

Happy or Moody most of the time: it's been a good week overall but we had a sick baby who wouldn't sleep and I found myself very near tears or actually in tears on several occasions.

Looking forward to: celebrating Valentines Day with my boys by making treats for E and hoping S likes his gift.

25 weeks

Pregnancy Update: 25 weeks

09:55

How far along? 25 weeks ... and counting down.

Maternity clothes? not this week but I'm starting to get sick of some of the outfits I have on rotation so I clearly either need to go shopping or the seasons need to hurry up and change so I can wheel out some of my cooler weather gear for a change..

Stretchmarks? still absent thankfully although I had a friend kindly recommend this week I buy some SM cream from a skincare line she is selling as it was known for reducing them. I have to admit to be a little insulted she just assumed I already had them :/

Symptoms: lots of Braxton Hicks still ... are they supposed top make labour easier/more efficient? Sadly the nausea also seems to have made a random return the past two mornings and has left me feeling blergh along with feelings of being out of breath constantly. That said, I am still enjoying a pretty great pregnancy and feel very lucky overall.

Sleep: the last few nights have involved lots of wakeups, lots of dreaming and lots of very full bladder discomfort ... the downhill stretch perhaps?

Miss Anything? after a few long dramatic days over the past week, an ice cold beer or sav blanc would have been welcomed like you wouldn't believe.

Movement: baby seems to have a whole lots of energy in the afternoons and when I finally sit down and settle in to watch The Block once E is in bed... hoping this is not a pattern for life on the outside.

Best moment this week: lots of little ones that combine to make the bigger picture of B2's impending arrival a reality like picking up the new 'family' car, selling our current Bugaboo cameleon (replacing with the donkey) and shopping the baby sales for newborn items.

Worst moment this week: while we don't live a fairytale, I don't have any worst moments to share this week either. We are all healthy and well so life is good.

Food cravings: my chocolate intake is definitely up, namely Whitmans coconut bars and mint slice biscuits however in my defence, I am also eating lots of mango, watermelon and white nectarines too. I also can't get through the morning it seems without an ice cold Norco coffee milk.

Anything making you queasy or sick: waking up the past two mornings has done that ... a sign to stay in bed perhaps? Try telling that to a 19 month old who walks around the house shouting 'mummmmmeeee' or 'nayyyyyyy' at 6:30am... and yes, he is calling me by my first name (nay for Renee) if he doesn't get a reply to 'mummmmmeeee' promptly.

Belly Button in or out? its out! Cue exasperated pained expression and hands in the air. Its a strange thing to adjust to surprisingly after 32 years of an innie... yes, I am being superficial.

Happy or Moody most of the time: very very happy ... this week I have been reminded once again of the beautiful people I have in my life and the love I and my little family are surrounded by. It makes me so excited to bring another baby into this circle to share that.

Looking forward to: taking a little time out for me this week and catching up with two of my favourite girlfriends this week to hearing about their overseas holidays - one jetted off to India and Nepal for January and the other, skiing in Japan! Oh, and booking tix to take E to see Playschool later in the year.

baby

Pregnancy update: 24 weeks

09:44

baby

Pregnancy update: 23 weeks

14:32

How far along? 23 weeks already ... and after today's appointment, maybe only 14 weeks to go!

Maternity clothes? still no maternity clothes, just living in my Coles Mix ruched stripe dresses, Country Road stretchy waist pants and jersey dresses. This pic shows me in a stretchy CR peplum top and CR print eleastic waist pants.

Stretchmarks? my Mothercare cream is still doing its job, none.

Symptoms: lots and lots of Braxton Hicks contractions this past week and more than a little uncomfortable. Particularly if I don't drink enough water. The heartburn is also showing no signs of abating.

Sleep: not great as the toddler is teething I suspect and crying out on and off. He's also had dirty nappies overnight which is extremely unusual :(

Miss Anything? oh how I'd love an icy cold Stone & Wood Pacific Ale in this heat!

Movement: baby never stops wriggling and its kicks are becoming a little more forceful as time goes on. You can definitely see some movement from the outside clearly now.

Best moment this week: visiting a girlfriend and her new baby boy... newborn cuddles are pretty special and my other favourite this week was attending a girlfriend's baby shower and enjoying all the fun and wonder of the lead up to a new arrival ... and realising we will be doing the same before too long.

Worst moment this week: toddler town has been a pretty exhausting residence this week with tears, clingyness and tantrums the order of the day. I found a great article about clingy toddlers though that has helped me employ a bit more patience in this phase E is going through. I also suspect we have started teething for his 2 year old molars in the past few days so throw in broken sleep, endless dirty nappies and a red raw bot to the mix.

Food cravings: and still food is just not doing it for me so I'm being sure to snack lots and just eat whatever it is I feel like as something is better than nothing. I had a big craving for chocolate yogos the other day and now have 11 sitting in my fridge - they no longer sell just the two pack did you know?

Anything making you queasy or sick: the same old culprit, red meat otherwise I'm good.

Have you started to show yet: oh yes, no hiding it now and definitely bigger this time around.

Belly Button in or out? its more out than in and I'm still wondering, does it go back in?

Happy or Moody most of the time: happy, excited and a little bewildered today ... my hospital appointment was this morning and while they have me monitored for cervix (possible shortening due to my LETZ procedure after E), my blood pressure and for B2's possible kidney issue, they've flagged a whole lot of other concerns for delivery stemming from Es birth that I never thought were a problem. I will now need to meet with their chief Obstetrician to discuss delivery options and timing. One midwife this morning told me I did well to make it through the birth and it must have been terribly traumatic... I don't recall it being terribly horrific or traumatic and I didn't have drugs so I wasn't out of it. Sure, it wasn't without its complications, it wasn't particularly enjoyable and there were some unexpected and undesirable aspects but hey, its childbirth and E and I both made it so it can't of been that bad to my thoughts. My hospital is very anti-caesar and the midwives are pro vaginal birth in all aspects so as I said, I'm a little bewildered but will wait till I speak with the Ob and will of course take whatever recommendation he considers to be best for bub and I.

Looking forward to: the heartburn passing and to a cool weather change. The mornings are hot, the days are hot and last night was hot hot hot! I can't wait to get all rugged up!